Wednesday, October 28, 2009


Alrighty... Back from the doc..

I am not crazy!

I do not have Bi-Polar!

But, I do have ADD/ADHD. And the way the doc was explaining how it works, how my brain is different from others and it makes so much sense. 

 So, I have a diagnosis. And I am not crazy. And I feel good about it.  So, I am excited... Right? I should be excited right? LOL . well, I am. 

so anyways. Just wanted to update everyone.


I just want to say that while I vent, and while I may say some names, it helps me. So that way I can get passed what it is that I am annoyed or mad at. It helps me. 

So while I may say your name, dont feel bad or anything. Its just me venting so that way I can get past whats bugging me and move on...

Its easy for me to write things out, rather than say things to people.  Writing is my outlet.



Well, today is my psych eval (fun!). Today I guess I find out if Im crazy....  So, I will definitely update you on that..

So anyways... Im a bit irked right now.... 
First, Tiff comes in at 1 and tried to wake me up.. After a while she walks out - cuz when someone doesnt wanna wake up you dont usually keep trying lol.. But the door closed a little harder than what she normally does when she comes to wake me up... I felt as if there was an attitude behind it.. but, idk..  But then chris wakes me up around 130/2pm. And when I come out, Tiff says go back to bed....   (((confused face))) Okay then. 

Then, since shes gonna get Eric from school, and take Chris to work (Eric gets out at 240p, chris has to be at work at 4 - but is going early cuz I have my appt at 430p... So hes going in around 330p) I figured that it would be easy to kill time by going to the library. Which is what they usually do. She was sitting here in a pullover hoodie and pajama pants and socks.  Which we have gone out in before. All she needed was shoes.... But No. Of course not. She had to put on a tight pair of pants, and a tight ass shirt... Why do people feel the need to get dressed up when taking my son and husband somewhere... 

Oh but wait.. LOL.. I guess I bring it on myself... Oh well right? whatever.
I had a dream... Tiff was talking to someone - I dont know who. but she was talking to someone saying that "Jens so jealous, but she brings it on herself. She does it to herself." In the dream, she was like mocking me. Laughing about it. Smiling about it. 

But how can someone bring something on themselves when she sees someone getting all doll'd up to take my husband to work. Why they gotta get all doll'd up to take my son to school or take him home.......   SO that dream really hits home for me... but if i say anything im wrong.. Cuz honestly, I think that is what people think... I think that people think I bring it on myself.. But whatever. 

I am just a little irked today.  and I dont know why... I think its that dream that did it for my day....

But I hope they tell me today that I am just crazy.. HA HA!

Oh, on a lighter note.... 
I got hired for Apple. So my only day off now is gonna be sundays. Work mon-fri at apple. Work saturday nights at the cab ( and rest on sunday. 
Chris is most likely gonna be transferring temporarily to Chandler Heights store (5miles south of his current store) just so he can finish training. And then hopefully he will be hired for Department Manager at his store.  So he will probably be switching to mornings, funny thing is, im gonna be working evenings! LOL fun!  
Everything is gonna be hectic till Feb. Thats when my apple job ends (unless they offer me employment in which case I will be working from home for them).  Thats when things will calm down... 

Ok. I think I am done... I gotta get ready for my appt... Yay. lol

Till next time. 

Thursday, October 15, 2009

Back pain.. So much fun!!!

Ok, first off. How is everyone today? Do you plan on watching Flash Forward, Greys Anatomy, and Private Practice like I am!? If not, you should. They are all really good...

So anyways. Today, I went and got a shot for my back. I told the doc that it hasn't been helping. So he asked me to show where the pain was, and where it was going. So I showed him. And he decided to give me the shot in a different place. He did it lower. So, basically the top of my ass crack LOL. I told them to knock me out. and they got me close to it. But it was hell. It hurt - and still hurts - so bad. He wanted to get a different set of nerves. Since I wasn't asleep fully, I felt some pain, and cried like a baby.. it was bad!! OMG.. but, I'm dealing with it now, and putting ice on it, and taking it easy... I decided not to go to group therapy today b/c of the pain.  

I feel like someone punched my tailbone.. Who knew your bone could hurt....

OH, on another note. Do any of you remember that old Disney show (circa 1998-2001) called The Famous Jett Jackson.  Remember the guy who played Jett Jackson? Well, I just saw him all grown and sexy on Flash Forward. I cannot believe it. I am so thrilled. I thought he just dropped off the planet of the Earth! So, just wanted to share for all of you who remember that show...

Im gonna get off here, and I am gonna finish watching my show :D Flash, then Greys, then Private... LOL Flash Greys Private HAHAHA.... I think the drugs are still in me lol.



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